09.16.02 - 1:10 a.m. - like gum flavor

i had a feeling once that came to me the first time i ever broke up with someone

and it comes back to me, in small increments.

i heard from a friend who is decades older than me that you may get older but you still end up dealing with the same problems and feelings and issues and complexes

i am not looking forward to that.

i think i am experienced, but i'm not really sure. you've got to have a proper balance of experience and reflection, anyway. that's what i think counts.

um ... essentially, i'm at that point again, the one where you have to decide whether it's worth it or not to tell the girl you like "hello, i like you." i dont know, because i dont know how recipracatory it is. i think that because she seems so romantically ambivalent, i don't have room to get scared over whether or not it'll work out and instead i'm going nuts over just telling her. oof, i don't even know what potential there is for any longlastingness. i'm beginning to believe that the elise thing left a bad taste for me. hm. i'd hate if it i was ever referred to as "that franklin thing i had once."

suddenly i wanted to type "jimmy cracked corn and i don't care" which makes sense if you think REALLY hard about it.

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