01.13.02 - 6:43 p.m. - if you grab the bar

i am trying to be happy and not in the heavy way where you think too much about it

sometimes i think it is working and sometimes i just don't want to smile anymore

i have friends and a girlfriend and i'm doing okay in school and my mom and my sister are doing alright too. i can handle this.

i hope that anyone who feels lonely tonight knows that there are other people who are sitting around too, and maybe one day we'll all meet each other. but i am kind of unsocial this schoolyear, i don't know why. maybe i'll feel the urge to talk with the strangers i brush with someday soon and i just can't see that happening yet.

oh. i just realized that my diary title "this is it" is a strokes cd title so i am gonna change it because i feel like i'm naming my diary "the strokes" or something.

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